The Beginning- Conseguir

Consegui! Eu have managed to see the revealing end of a friendship, the necessary termination of a love affair, the passing of a beloved grandmother, the end to confusion and lostness. I’ve managed to see focus regained, find true love and be happy. I’ve managed to be utterly and fully happy. I did not expect that I would find beauty the way I’ve managed to find it here in Brazil. Brazil, Thank You. I am able to smile a deeper, sincerer smile. This smile is the tip of a strongly burning flame. The flame is deep. (Oh, it is so fucking deep.) I feel the heat of it each time I hold a hand, call a name, listen to a voice, each time I make a prayer. I can not guarantee anything to anyone traveling to Brazil. All I can do is say how utterly conducive this place has been to my spiritual and intellectual development/growth. (LIKE A BOSS) All I can say is how completely conducive its been to giving less of academic institutional fucks. All I CAN say is that Brazil is will ALWAYS be the place where I met myself and enjoyed every last moment I had with me. Brazil is the place where my first real love took place. She taught me love in the most unconditional way. Thought me love as unconditional. As it should be. As it SHOULD be. As it is! *SCREAMS* Words are fraco as fuck! I found God, Dude!!!!! And we are becoming the best of friends. God is and so am I. We Are. We are LOVE.

Obrigada! Muito Obrigada!